Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Honest and Open


Today I have chosen to be honest and open.
This is what I posted on my facebook page today.
Here's the scoop.I joined weight watchers 15 weeks ago. The first couple weeks went really well, then I got off track. I have lost 15 pounds, but have a whole person to lose. It is easy to get discouraged . Today I decided that I am going to stop being embarrassed of my weight. I am going to tell you all that I have about 115 lbs or so that I still want to lose. Yikes eh?!
I will post every week (wednesday's)what my weigh in is. What I am hoping is that by being open and honest about where I am and how I am doing I will be able to keep myself more on track. If there is anyone out there that is trying to lose weight and get healthy, I would love it if you would keep in touch and we can motivate each other.
Honest and Open, Here I go.....


I am overweight.


By definition I am morbidly obese.


What ugly words.


I struggle with it, and have for years.


I have hidden the numbers from people for forever. I don't know why because to look at me, there is no way you wouldn't already guess. (not that you'd be guessing the numbers, but you would know that my weight is a definite issue) It is like if I didn't tell anyone the real numbers, I could deceive myself into thinking that people didn't think I was as big as I am.


I AM OVERWEIGHT.

At my heaviest I was 289.9lbs

(scarily close to the 300 mark)

I joined Weight Watchers.

(you have no idea how hard that was)

I got down to 264lbs and was really proud of myself.

Then I got pregnant with Baby #3.

(a BIG surprise)

This wasn't the only surprise in our year, and before I knew it I had regained all but 8 pounds.

(even more disappointing considering I had lost and additional 10pounds after having the baby)

When I rejoined Weight Watchers this time I was 281.8lbs

At my last weigh-in I was 267.4lbs


This is me. This is my journey.

There are days when the road seems incredibly long and endless.



There are so many pieces to this puzzle that I need to figure out. I know it is about so much more than just losing weight.




I have a LOVE/HATE relationship with my scale.




I am anxiously awaiting watching the inches disappear and smaller sized clothing finding their way into my closet!


I have goals....lots of them, but we'll make that another post.

But I will tell you that one of them is to look like this....






Are you on a journey?

7 comments:

  1. This is so courageous! Prayers for you Jess as you learn to love and forgive yourself! xx

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  2. Wishing you all the best on your weight loss journey! I struggle with my weight too and have been off and on WW for a long time. Reading your post, I feel motivated to jump in and get serious about it. Thank you!

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  3. Your story really resonates with me :) You aren't alone. Congratulations on taking that first step. I was a Weight Watcher for years and am now on the Slimming World plan. You can do it.

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  4. Just found you through the blog hop and I'm SO glad that this is the post that you chose to link up with. It's beautifully written and completely fits the "honest and open" title! Now I'm going to poke around some of your other posts :)

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  5. I found your post through Blog hop. I Loved your post! Your honesty and your goals. I started my blog for the same reason to make me be more accountable to myself, knowing that I have just entered it for the world to see.
    Good luck on your journey. You can do it!

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  6. This is a great post!!! Love your honesty and your goals :)

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  7. Wow, honest and open is right! I've felt this way, absolutely been there, and have found great results on WW [when I stay at least fairly focused, lol]. Good luck . . . you can do it!

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